For many years I have dreamt of the moment I finally find my son. And when you do, detective, what then? I'm not sure. My biggest fear is that when I do find him, what's left of us may not be enough. I havent been able to forgive myself, and so I push my wife away. I cant even look her in the eyes, because every time I do, I see my mistakes. So I take the risk of losing everything, not because I want to, but because I have to. Only then will I have the strength to go to my wife and ask her for forgiveness. And I have fo believe that one day... She will give it to me.