La dolce vita

I'm too serious to be an amateur, but not serious enough to be a professional. The most miserable life is better, believe me, than an existence protected by a society where everything's organized and planned for and perfect.

Sometimes at night... the darkness and silence weigh on me. It's peace that frightens me. I fear peace more than anything else. It seems to me it's just a facade with hell hiding behind it. I think of what my children will see in the future. "It will be a wonderful world," they say. But how, when a phone call can end it all? One should live beyond passion and emotion, in the harmony found in perfect works of art, in that enchanted order. We should learn to love one another, to live outside of time, detached. Detached.